Written and produced by Armin van Buuren, Adrian Broekhuyse and Raz Nitzan
Vocals Elles de Graaf

Which Salvador Dali Painting Are You

It has a dark feel to it, but with a happy tempo. Leaves you feeling positively sad and addicted to the song. Enjoy!

One of the songs appearing in September 2011  release of UK’s Word Magazine CD “Now Hear This!”

Cannibalism of Objects -1937 -Salvador Dali

Cannibalism of Objects -1937 -Salvador Dali

Apologizing is...

Depression is a state of mind as well as happiness. Here is my take on it – I can’t stand it when people start being too positive with me when I say I’m depressed or everything in my life is going so bad that I’m on the edge of a nervous breakdown… They start telling me how happy and positive I should be, how grateful I should be with what I have and balance my wants vs my needs…and so on… It only irritates me more. Because those people have no goddamn idea what it’s like to be in a situation when everything just sucks. And whatever you do to try and get yourself out of it somehow goes into a spin, something else goes wrong and everything gets even worse…. and all that shit brings you down even more…

Now, the ugly truth: there isn’t t much you can do to feel better. That’s what I discovered anyway. You have to go through that wave of depression in your life and know that things will get better. Things change – it’s a fact. So nothing will stay the same forever, good or bad. And you need to let yourself be depressed and feel shitty to let the stress out and not keep it in. I start smoking more and being extra bitchy and kinda whiny sometimes. It helps when you can talk to someone who understands how you feel, someone who won’t judge you, won’t bring you even more down and say you’re weak and need to be stronger… Someone who won’t just state the obvious, and most likely you don’t want to hear that anyway…

Someone – a friend, girlfriend, boyfriend, husband, wife, child, sibling, mentor, therapist, your dog perhaps? Just listing all the possible options y’all . Unfortunately for me I don’t have anyone like that anymore so I take on the world one day at a time – helps me cope better. I do have a dog, and even couple of cats, but they aren’t big on conversation, not in a way I like to talk anyway . I used to have a friend for a couple of years, someone I was also seeing – nice combination isn’t it? What I miss the most is the fact that I lost a friend in him when we separated, miss the support I received from him, sincere support, and giving the same support back and knowing we both could rely on each other, good or bad. Not to say either of us never f*cked up, but you have to allow someone room for mistakes because no one is perfect, no one.

Having someone to rely on emotionally definitely helps. You can’t keep all the negative emotions to yourself – you’ll get very very depressed. And it’s not good for your health either – the stress and trying to hold it in inside. Maybe that’s why I feel like talking helps me personally. I really enjoy writing – it’s one of the ways of self-expression along with painting and drawing…

I’ve been experiencing a wave of “bad luck” for over six months now, non-stop. I don’t know how I made it through all the hell I’ve been through but I made it. Trying to learn from the past and use that knowledge to be smarter in the future. I’m also sometimes discouraged if I don’t see immediate results and trying to work on myself to get better at it… To understand that many things take time and in preparation I won’t see any results. But it doesn’t mean I need to stop working towards it…

It’s all in our perception too… But it’s very hard to change your perception, especially when things are crappy in your life… To see an opportunity in a failure. Especially your own failure.

  This is the best that I can outline my thoughts and what helps me when I’m feeling down.

Maybe it will help you. Maybe just reading this will help. Maybe you’ll share what helps you to deal with stress when your world starts to crumble…

Irreversibly depressed and overwhelmingly bitter (at the moment anyways),

Amarille

Listening to: Phantogram “When I’m Small”

Lets see here… It seems like this little paper covers about all of the questions men, aka “shallow pigs” and I quote the author , have for us girls when they meet us for the first time… Given they really do have serious intentions and not just wanting to sleep with you and then disappear never to be seen again… Which is fine for those looking for a “meaningful overnight relationship”… In fact in that case you wont need to ask any questions other than the obvious ones LOL….

So, for the guys  looking for a girlfriend, you might want to bring this application with you on your next first date … hehe… Enjoy!

No? Ahhh, thats too bad… Because these days anything is possible… 

So, does your cat go outside? Well, if you reside in an apartment probably not. But if you are at the house – probably yes.  Well, I happen to live at a house on 2 acres of land. And my five cats do get their outdoor time, but imagine herding five cats! When the moment their paws hit the grass they take off and they scatter… Yeah, good luck tracking them down now!

Of course if they did that every time I wouldnt have five cats anymore. So obviously I do catch them every time . And they are really good cats, as far as cats go … But on occasion I find myself in the dark with a flashlight and a can of food, fishing a kitty out from the wooded area to the back of my property… I could just leave the kitty there to learn her lesson, but it so happens that there are also coyotes in those woods, which is something the kitty doesn’t know…neither does she realise that cats are one of coyote’s favourite treats… Had the kitty known the “ugly truth” she wouldnt run after that darn rabbit into the woods….

But anyhow… When I saw this post I smiled… As all my cats are tagged and microchipped…But it will do no good if no one can find them. I really don’t know if I will actually build one of these, but there is a chance of something happening if I “forget” to close the browser and go call my younger brother to show me how to….ummm… map a network drive LOL..  He might accidentally see it, and maybe just maybe something might come out of this… Strategy! It never fails

So, the thingie I am talking about is an RFID Cat Tracker from Nermal.com. With project notes,  pictures and step-by-step instructions how to build your very own! Yep, and your kitty can update her status on Twitter, update her log online or send you a lovely SMS…

Ahhh… so thankful for technology… and all those weirdos that build these cool crazy things!!!

Enjoy     Nermal » CATaLOG | An RFID Cat Tracker.

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This launch follows the release of Aviary’s Firefox plugin, Talon, which does essentially the same thing, but requires both Firefox and an install. Of course, by making it web-based, the screen capture feature is now available to anyone that wants it. As such, it also stands to introduce Aviary’s image editing tools to a much bigger audience by luring in users with a feature that lots of people need every day.

Aviary Makes Screen Grabs Insanely Easy.